Hello all!! I have missed you all! I have been taking a well needed break from LJ...but I think I am ready to jump back in..That is if you still want me around! Alot has been going on lately..and if we are friends on Facebook....you prob. already know.....and for those who dont....I will post about it tomorrow...cause it may take a while and I dont have the time right now to do it!!



Love you and miss you all!!

Vanessa

She has gotten so big!!

hey all! im here! i have been having alot of trouble trying to log in and crap! i dont want u to think that i gave up on u! for some reason it kept telling me that livejournal did not exist... i tried everything and nothing worked... but it is now working! so i have alot of catching up to do! i am now doing this fromy phone! well gotta go! love and miss u all!

Happy Birthday skeletalembrace ..I did not forget about you!! hope you had a wonderful day!! *hugs*

Thank you to all my LJ friends who wished Zahn a Happy Birthday...

Zahn now has ringworm...ugh..will this never end? She has it in two spots..one on her leg and one on her chest by her neck.....More Lotrimin is being bought today....I think I should invest in their stocks....with as much as I spend on that crap..I would be rich!!!! I wish I could SUE Logan's school and make them pay for all the medications and doctors appointments I have had to pay for..due to their neglegence!!! Stupid Fuckers!!

First off this is not a debate or a descussion!!! Comment if you want..but no F***ing drama please!!


So every morning I drop off Logan at school and take Chris to work..and every morning I drive by Planned Parenthood..and every morning I see about 30 protesters...I brings tears to my eyes...I think that if I didnt have Zahn with me I would be standing out there with them..
A little old man was holding a sign that said "honk if you are Pro-Life"..So I honked and he waved...It made me cry..not sure why..but it did.

I know it may not make a difference if they are out there or not..but this little old man is out there every morning and every night when I pick up Chris from work....And sometimes when I go out during the day he is still there!!! It really touches me..ya know...and I always look back at Zahn..thinking how can someone hurt a baby? How can someone KILL a baby...from the moment she is conceived..she is ALIVE!! She has a heartbeat..she is a part of you!! I am thankful that someone is standing up for the babies rights, since they cant! I dont know why people dont just put them up for adoption so a loving family can take them..I know there are hundreds of kids that dont have homes...that dont have parents..and alot are in foster homes their entire lives...but they are LOVED!! I just wanna drive up and give that old man a hug! And I will continue to honk every morning...just to show my support!!

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I got a call from Logan's Dermatologist today...well a voicemail anyway...The cultures they took of Logan's head is STILL POSITIVE!! (For those of you who don't know..my son got ringworm from his SCHOOL.....LAST YEAR at the beginning of the year..and has been on several medications...such as pills, lotions, and shampoos..all costing around $40-$60 a month!!!) She said that since he has had it so long...and nothing is killing it..we may have to experiment on him..since the next step of medication has never been tested on children. They said they have never seen a case of ringworm so severe....and with the doseges of Terbinafine he was on....there should have been no way on God's green earth that it would live....but it has.....I dont know what to do!!! I feel so bad for him..He has had bald spots on his head from where his hair has fallen out...and he has it in at least 16 different spots on his head...some are as small as the tip of a pen to the size of a silver dollar or alittle bit bigger! I have to call her back on Wednesday to figure out what we can and will do about this.....I wish I could sue the school.....This has been a complete nightmare for all of us....and we are always on pins and needles trying to make sure our 11 1/2 month old daughter does not get it!!!


edit: We have tried all the antifungal  creams, home remedies such as apple cider vinegar, lotions,powders,pills, ect..the only thing we have not tried is.....bleach...and I dont think I need to explain why we have not tried it!!! he has been on greseafovin (sp?) 2 times, Terbinafine (250 mg) for 5 months...and was on the shampoo for 2 month..all of these methods should have killed it...but none have!!!

I got a call from Logan' school nurse around 10:30 am..He has a fever of 99.5..So I picked him up from school, gave him some Tylenol and he is in his room asleep. I hope he feels better soon...He didnt tell me he wasnt feeling well..he just said he had a headache...and that was it...He is sad cause I told him that he could not play with his sister (who is almost 1)..cause we dont want her to get sick.  That made him upset and he started crying...I feel bad...but I cant have her getting sick...he understands...I am hoping his fever goes down...but if not he will have to stay home tomorrow.....my sweet boy....I dont like it when he feels icky!!!

Chris and I are doing okay now...for now..He is trying to talk to me more..I know it will take some time, so I am being as patient as I can.

Logan-
He is driving us crazy! He is getting more mouthy and has started talking back to us and arguing with us. He is now pulling the "Well when I was down in Texas with A-dumb( his sperm doner)...he let me....blah blah blah"...I dont know what to do.  He even said " I dont have rules down there..so I want to go live with A-dumb and Marissa (ex's wife)."..That tore me apart! I started crying...and he changed his mind..I think cause he doesnt like to see me sad...I have given up everything (like a mother should) for him to be happy and healthy. I raised him by myself for a long time..and even had to get on welfare and daycare assistance to take care of him..I gave him as much as I possibly could...He doesnt understand that A-dumb doenst call or write, send pictures or any cards..for any holiday..and only takes him 1-2 times a year..when it is conveinient for HIM! He just knows that A-dumb buys him stuff (but doesnt want to pay his medical bills that he is supposed to pay 76% of)..A-dumb bought him a Tv, X-Box 360, games for the X-box, and other toys (none of which he is allowed to bring home with him and play with here..so he gets to have them 1-2 times a year!!)..He also lets him eat CRAP...and they eat out ALOT!!! We dont eat fast food much (if you call pizza fast food...then yes...we do eat that!!)..but we dont eat Mc Donalds, Wendy's..Burger King..ect.. I also am having trouble getting him to eat...I dont even know if he is even eating the lunch we are sending with him to school (he says he is..but who really knows!)..He makes himself sick if he doesnt want to eat something, and doesnt care if we make him go to bed afterwards cause he didnt want to eat..A-dumb has ADD or ADHD..not sure which...and I really think that Logan is too...but insurance doesnt cover him going to a "specialist"..Where can I take him to get checked? The doctor just tells me to take him to a "specialist"...but there has to be someone else!! I may have to take him to a Phyciatrist??? I am at my witts end..and so is Chris...I really hate seeing Logan like this..he has always been such a good boy!! And I know it isnt because Zahn is here now...he LOVES her (and I have talked to him about it).

Zahn-

She is getting so big!! She now has 5 teeth, and is walking like a champ!! The only time she really crawls now is if she cant get somewhere fast enough by walking. She will be ONE in 16 days (and counting down)..I am so excited! I bought her a polka dot dress at Target for $6.52,some leggings for $2.99..and a sweater (if it is chilly) for $12.99....LOVE IT!!

Thats about it!!!!

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So Chris had to work this morning(as he does every other Saturday)..and had to be there at 4 am..Well when he got up..this is what I heard (Zahn is in her crib in our room)

Zahn: Hi dada (bounces in her crib)
Chris: Hi Zahn
Zahn: Hi
Chris: Hi
Zahn Dada....hi dada..hi (still bouncing)
Chris: Zahn..hi Zahn..hi
Zahn: Hi dada...dada...dada...dada....hi
Chris: Hi Zahn...Zahn....Zahn....hi Zahn
Zahn: (high pitched) DADA! (bounces faster)
Chris: SSSShhhh Zahn...your gonna wake mommy!

Really? like I wasnt awake already!!! But it was so adorable..I couldnt keep from laughing!

And the fact that she now says "hi" or "hey" so clearly makes me happy..so is that technically her first word? maybe!

I finally told Chris last night...that he needs to start talking /communicating to me..or we (myself,Zahn, and Logan) WILL NOT  be around much longer. I asked him if that is what he wanted and he said no...but it truely wasnt heartfelt. I feel like he just said it cause it is "what I wanted to hear".  Then he said " I'm not feeling well and I am going to bed" in the middle of our discusion!!! and then  he said " I am communicating this with you so you know" WTF!!! I am tired of feeling like CRAP! I am so lonely...and I am tired of crying! I know that we are all stressed about money and trying to get out of this stupid hell hole...but that is no reason for not talking to me! I am also pissed cause his buddy from work is going to buy the car from us....and he picked it up from the repair shop (no it was not repaired..they were just letting us park it there until his friend picked it up), and when we drove by the shop I started freaking out cause she was gone...and Chris did not tell me that MY car was gone and Sam picked it up!! WTF!! I thought I was going to have a heartattack when I didnt see her there!! He did not think it was necesary to tell me! I asked him if he gave us any money yet and he said they were still working things out...so he has MY car at HIS house..and has not given us anything for it?? It also still has ALL of our crap in it..including Logan's other car seat! We are definitely having a major talk when the kids go to bed..even though he has to be at work at 4 am..I dont give a SHIT!!! How fucking hard is it to talk to the person you "love" and want to be with "forever"???

Zahn LOVES to play with the computer (the tower)..she loves turning it off and flipping things up and down, and opening things...It is driving me bananas!!! Has anyone ever bought one of these??? Does it fit on all towers??? I cant seem to find anyone who carries them except for online...I have a HP computer if that helps.....

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Zahn is walking like crazy...and when she falls down..she gets right back up!! It is soo funny though..cause she looks like a old man who needs a cane!! LOL! But when I took her to the bank with me yesterday she was walking inside while holding my hand,I wanted to see if she would walk without me like she does at home..and she just froze and started shaking!! I wonder if it was because everyone was staring at her...cause everyone at the bank knows us very well...(it is a small bank for certain people who work for certain companies or are retired from the company and their families)....She didnt cry or anything..just stood there...and her hands were shaking..is that normal? was she just nervous??

This is including political and religious leaders..ect.. There are 96 so far...that is so sad!! And it does not even include the Late Richard Wright of Pink Floyd who died yesterday from battling with cancer.....

wcbstv.com/slideshows/celebrity.deaths.2008.20.651675.html

Some of these are super sad...and some I dont know who they are..(but it is still sad..cause there was someone who loved them)

www.comcast.net/articles/music/20080915/EU.Britain.Pink.Floyd/

He will always be remembered..and missed...Pink Floyd has definitely gotten me through some hard times growing up. It is weird..cause I was just listening to my P.F. cd this morning..jamming out..unaware that he had passed. R.I.P. Richard Wright

Zahn now has her 5th tooth popping up...it is her I tooth...better known as the canine?? anyway she has her two top front and 2 bottom front..is this normal for an 11 month old to be getting  her I teeth in???

I am a SAHM..so I dont really eat out! I maybe eat out 2 times a month...sometimes not at all. If I do eat out I eat at Subway..and that costs $5.00 plus tax....so...maybe $10.00 a month at the most!

What do all of you use to clean your homes?...This is including mirrors, sinks, bath tubs, counters, toilets...ect...

I am just curius! What do you like about the products you use? (are they organic?...ect..) What dont you like about them?

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